Dear friend ,
Hi today is Sunday and Sundays are sad days not sun days but at times I wish they were … I’m numb and depressed. I’m just gonna tell you ; depression sucks. I know I’m use to it but its like I wanna get over it I want to be happy what if I was happy for once. I mean what if I could list so much what ifs infinite of them. But I just keep them as what if’s not make them happen. 2 weeks clean 2 damn weeks that’s nothing like why ? Not 3 months I’m not strong but I wish I was I’m a sensitive bitch that no cares about is that. Bad ? Is it bad that I think that about.my self ?
Love always your friend
I know I’m having a sad day when I sit around watch movies , eat , feel tired and have second thoughts . And those second thoughts are driving me crazy. I been trying so hard just to happy again. He was the only one that made me happy. But he left I dont know what to do it hurts a lot a lot but its okay I’m use to being. Worthless and everything else. At times I want the answer of why I’m depressed and I want to know. every time someone tells me why are you sad. Its like my whole thoughts build up and just want to exploded. I can’t explain why I’m sad when everything is wrong ?
Cause life sucks everything about it sucks .. nothing ever goes right it goes left like that makes sense why cant there just be sunshine no rain ?. But if there’s no rain there’s no pain and what if there is Pain no one would know how to deal with it that’s why we have rain and Sunshine right ? Or I’m just making a mistake ? Anyways my feelings are just in a maze and love is a riddle ..? I’m trying to solve this riddle but I can’t because my feelings are stuck in that maze that’s all
Love always , your friend
So I’m really pissed off at John Green right now.
I read An Abundance of Katherines first and it was pretty good. Most importantly NO ONE DIED.
Then I read The Fault in Our Stars. At least you saw that one coming. At least they had a relationship first.
Now I’m in the middle of Looking for Alaska and I’m going to actually burn the book because screw you John!!! How dare you do this to me
John green and always making someone die D;